A Final First Thought

So I am a person of many words. In fact I tend to ramble on and on and on..wait you get the idea. However, I think I have a lot to say, to share, and even to learn. I figured that I would start a blog to hold all my thoughts forever in cyberspace. This first one is a final thought and a first one.

Today was my last day at Six Flags Fiesta Texas. For those who don't know the full story let me give you a little background first. When Fiesta Texas was announced in 1989 I was just 4 years old. I was fond already at that age of a local Family Entertainment Center known as Jungle Jim's (now called Jeepers around the US) and of course of Sea World Texas. My father and mother would always take me to both these places. I knew even at a young age of 2 how much I loved these places. The announcement of this new place though seemed special though. My mom worked at USAA the primary owner and developer so I got to be first hand at many of the festivities. This place would become my life passion. Now of course I could ramble on about all the times and memories, but this blog today is about my final thoughts on moving on to new thoughts soooooo here we gooo!

A FINAL FIRST THOUGHT

     Today I move on I let go. Last year I knew that my time of where I was had come but, how? How could the place I had called home for 9 years and had been living the dream at be done for me? It was not easy, but I knew that I needed to grow and spread my wings. After all we grow up in a real home with parents and are expected to launch at some point from that. Of course why would we ever do that why would we ever grow up there either. That is the answer to my first question. It is because we are suppose to grown and fly away.
     When 2010 started I began looking for new opportunities to allow me to spread my wings. There were a few that I felt were really right, but in the end they didn't work out. This may have discouraged the average person, but it put it all into perspective for me. What was I meant to do? If you know me well you know I put a lot of faith in letting God guide the universe. What will be will be. I then realized that what I needed to do was be myself, do something on my own, be something more, and share my passion for life. So I began to prepare for the end. Me leaving my comfort zone. The only place I had ever worked. I at first was going to dive in and leave in September, but knew that I could not leave in the middle of something. I needed to finish the season and put my passion on one last thing the Holiday Seasons. So I did. I put it all on the line gave it my all and in the end was proud of my final product and final showing.
     So how do you let go? This is the final first thought I present you. LETTING GO. It was not and still easy, but it was what I had to do. This is the only thing I have ever known. I have never had a job anywhere else. I have been loyal to this place with all my heart and soul. I have gave and gave and gave it all. I think about it and a cry. It is emotional for me, yet it is right. It is right for me. I think sometimes in life we hold on to things because of fear. Fear that if we let go nothing will catch us, we will fall forever, or we will crash and burn. Yet, I have learned that sometimes when you hold on you lock in where your at and never move again. Frozen in time with no hope of anything new, anything better, anything different, or anything that may give you a better chance at getting there.
     That being said letting go of anything is hard, BUT A DREAM.. WHY THAT JUST SOUNDS CRAZY. How could I let go of my dream job? It is all perspective. I would hope that most of you out there have more than one dream. That is the nice thing about dreaming and about life. We go to bed every night and by God's will we wake up every morning with a new dream fresh in our head and a new day in front of us. That is where you have to take the opportunity that the new dreams present. We have many dreams and many hopes. We never want to let go of what we have worked so hard to make work or make right. But if we hold onto everything forever we will never be able to gain new things. Of course somethings are worth holding onto don't get me wrong, but being willing to separate from a dream when that dream is nearing it's end allows you to keep that dream a dream and not a nightmare.
     Wrapping up the ramble... Cherish all you have been given. Don't be afraid to let go. Spread your wings and fly. Dream a new dream every night. Finally, give it up to something higher than you. Only he knows why things are happening and you have to put it in his hands. The answers are never simple and you may have to struggle and fight to get somewhere. In the end sometimes the results may not seem to be something you want, but the way to go.

Ryan